The Gift Of Truth Unveiled

I was missing God so much. It had been too long since it had been just Him and I alone. Lingering. Enjoying. Abiding. Deep worship encounters at church had been sustaining me. A period of fasting last month had kept me going. Praying each morning online had brought strength. Talking to God and reading the Bible on my phone first thing each morning as I lay in my bed, preparing for another insanely busy day, in an insanely busy season, had kept my connection with heaven flowing. Yet it wasn’t enough. Sure, it was strengthening and renewing and life giving yet none of it compared to simply being with Him. To feeling Him so close. To beholding His beauty and being consumed from the inside out.

As I pulled on my converse and threw my stuff together, ready to rush out of the house this morning, I reminisced on the last time I’d experienced this tangible, intoxicating presence of God’s nearness during my ordinary day. I calculated that it had been about a month. Wow. A whole month since the walls of my flat had experienced the sweet sweet echo of my unhindered praise.  A whole month since my laminated flooring had felt the weight of my knees surrendered in worship. A whole month since the King of glory had been offered my undivided attention. My undiluted affection. My uncluttered mind. A whole month since He’d been given permission to woo my heart with His sheer indescribable loveliness. My heart ached as I remembered what that felt like.

Imagine my sheer delight then when my plans for today changed and my afternoon appointment got cancelled. Haaaaa. The joy. YESSS! I grabbed my Bible as soon as I walked through the door and walked into the kitchen. I found myself in Psalm 119. I read the first verse. It instantly floored me.

“BLESSED (HAPPY, fortunate, to be envied) are the undefiled (the upright, truly sincere, and blameless) in the way [of the revealed will of God], who walk (order their conduct and conversation) in the law of the Lord (the whole of God's revealed will).” Psalm119:1 (AMP)

Suddenly I was smacked in the face by the scandalous unfathomable blessing of having the truth of God revealed to me. What an incredible gift it is, for people that know truth.  For those who have had the truth unveiled to them. Flip. Flip. Flip. Aaah. The Mercy. To think I was once living a lie. I was once completely in the dark. Because anyone who walks in the truth of God now, would have once been in the dark. Jesus thank You for revealing Your truth to me. Where would I be without Your beautiful truth? All these thoughts went through my mind as I read this verse and began to sob hysterically. He was right there. Even before I finished reading the verse He came. BAM. His sweet presence, flooring me with His nearness.

I was awestruck. I was so touched by how instantly I was able to feel His tangible presence. Wow. His beauty and lavish companionship is so freely bestowed upon us. He is so kind. I love Him so much. He is so beautiful. He began to fill my heart with compassion afresh for the lost. For all those who haven’t yet had the truth unveiled to them. Who haven’t seen or understood or accepted the truth.

I was overcome afresh with my own inability to walk in truth. In my own humanity I can never truly know truth. I can only walk in truth because it has been revealed to me by God. It is the truth of God that undefiles me and causes me to be upright, truly sincere, and blameless like this scripture says, because it is Jesus’ righteousness that I am hidden in, not my own ability to pursue truth.

I found myself considering my life of darkness and deception, before the truth of God’s love was unveiled to me. Though I may have been beautifully delivered from a life of darkness into wonderful truth but that discovery of truth is not my doing. It is in God’s mercy and grace that He has ever so kindly and compassionately revealed that truth to me. I was reminded that we cannot ever boast in our own ability to walk in truth. We can never consider ourselves in any way superior to someone who may not yet know the truth - because truth is not a mere pursuit of man but it is in fact a gift from God. Truly. Where would we be without Him? How would we live a day without His truth guiding us?

As I reflect on the beautiful encounter that I am having I am undone. Oh how I love His presence. How I love His Word. I just love love love how He was waiting all along...I love how the moment I opened His Word, He instantly took me on a journey into the supernatural...I began to travel a road of heavenly adventure in His Word, unveiling treasure and truth. This is what I had missed so much. This glorious glorious unravelling that comes when we hang out together. It’s not to say I hadn’t been abiding with Him over the last month - I totally had. But I hadn’t beheld Him. I hadn’t stopped everthing. Dropped everything. I hadn’t travelled with Him in heavenly places.

I stand in complete awe of the scandal of His nearness.  It blows my mind that the minute I looked at Him and gave Him my gaze He instantly came. The very second I beheld His Word with a heart that was so desperately hungry for Him, He tangibly showed up. And He did not come empty handed. He came ladened with gifts. The gift of His affirmation...His acceptance...His delight...The gift of fresh revelations of His love and kindness. The gift of His timeless truths...and the gift of His presence. All so intricately intertwined with one another. All so nourishing and delicious yet so insatiably appetising...rendering me overflowing with satisfaction, yet hungry for more. 

x

Open Doors

Happy New Year!!!

This new year has began with such a bang that my chin is still on the floor!! My heart is so filled with expectation about all that this year carries and all that God is wanting to pour out into our lives in this year. It's the year of new beginnings and it's the year of open doors...and you better believe it. I sure am.  In fact the doors that have swung wide open - quite literally as I stepped over the threshold, into 2018 are totally blowing my mind...the ease at which things have been kicking into gear with the new Sacred Sexuality book is quite deliciously unfathomable. Not quite sure what to do with it aside from believe it, enjoy it, receive it and expect it to continue all through this mighty fine year...not just for me, but for every single one of us. 

I am determined to remain in a place of expectation. To remain hemmed in by the goodness of God, standing firm on Christ as the confession of my hope, the anchor of my soul. Unwavering. Unshakeable.   Setting my face like flint - fixed firmly upon the kind intent of God towards me, and His desire, promise and provision over me...His ability to make this the best year of my life, so far. And yours.  I am resolved in my spirit that no matter what may happen, I will refuse to be anxious, I will refuse to enter into undustrubedness, I will refuse to lose my peace.  No matter what my external circumstances may look like I will know that I will know that I will know that God has got me, He's got the situation and He has already orchestrated the victory! I will choose to believe and not doubt. I will choose to pray and not fret.

I am so serious about living a worry free year. Why should I worry about a thing? I've got Romans 8:28 surrounding me. He works all things together for our good. Why worry?  We have been hemmed in by victory and when the poo hits the fan I can either stand on the truth of the finished work knowing that God is faithful and won't let me down and I can choose to enjoy Him even in the struggles. OR I can worry and be anxious and doubt and be in unrest. The outcome will the same no matter what - God will come through either way but the journey through the struggle won't be an opportunity to abide and grow in God...it will just be a painful time that God doesn't want for me. He wants good for me. All the time. Every one of His thoughts towards me are good.

In some ways for me the very first doors of this year that have appeared to have swung open are the ones in my mind. Stuff that God has been doing in my thinking patterns for quite some time now, has gained a clarity and I'm changing the way that I think.  He has been challenging me deeply for quite some time now about how I see myself.  How I see my position as a child of God. Asking me if I understand what it actually means to be a son of God? To think like royalty and dream like a son?  Or will I remain simply serving as a steward in the king's palace?  Or worst still will I stay imprisoned in a mindset of orphanhood, a waif mentality...a slave. No way! I AM thinking big. I refuse to remain small. It's not an option for me.  I am a daughter of God and I will think like royalty. 

Therefore I am expecting the fulfilment of dreams in a radical way this year. I am expecting things to come through in the most mind-blowing way! I am expecting provision, resources, expansion, creativity to show up in unprecedented ways. I am expecting Living in Light to grow and expand. I am expecting masses to be impacted by the new book. I am expecting to have wealth. I am expecting to be taken higher than ever before. And I'm not settling for less. This is the year of open doors - I've stepped through. Have you? 

x

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Living in Light

As 2017 comes to an end I just wanted to say a huge thank you for all your amazing support over the year! I realise that loads of people that connect with Living in Light don’t know what this platform is even about so I’d love to explain.

Living in Light is a company built upon the scripture 1 Peter 2:9-10: “But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a consecrated nation, A [special] people for God’s own possession, so that you may proclaim the excellencies [the wonderful deeds and virtues and perfections] of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light.”

It’s about being redeemed, called and known by God to live a life of dazzling light, shining bright in the darkest of realms, fearing nothing and becoming everything you have been created to be. Whether it’s individually, relationally, sexually, creatively, emotionally, spiritually - in every dimension unapologetically letting your light shine whilst ultimately being a signpost for the only truly Radiant One.

Living in Light therefore encompasses my fashion brand where I use my creative gifts in fashion to release love, light and liberty through the clothes that I design. It also includes the Living in Light Image consultancy where I equip others to walk in confidence in their personal style starting from the inside working our way to the external.  Then there are the Fashion Workshops which I offer for those who'd like guidance in fashion, as a creative avenue they may wish to pursue.

Living in Light also involves my testimony being shared in creative ways to demonstrate God’s transformational love and power to turn my life which was once sheer darkness into light in the most merciful and breathtaking way. It involves me building others up through words, biblical teachings, education, creativity and my own personal experiences.

And most recently because of my own promiscious past and now my radically pure life, Living in Light involves Sacred Sexuality - a counter-cultural movement that desires to see a generation reject dysfunctional sexuality found in society which is often rooted in brokenness, pain and insecurity as well as counterfeit intimacy - and instead encouraging the re-wiring of our God-given desires towards true love and intimacy...seeking a connection which is eternal, unconditional and satisfying beyond belief!

Living in Light has also produced so many other things in the past...jewellery, menswear, children's wear, bespoke greeting cards and paintings. And I'm excited about what I'll produce in the future.  It's a lifelong adventure.  Ultimately Living in Light is a platform for God to use anything and everything that's brewing inside of me to shine His dazzling light...to pierce through the darkness...whether it's the darkness of a broken, fallen world, whether it's the darkness of religion...fear of man...the darkness of mediocrity...insecurity...false humility...the whole nine yards.  

Whatever it is, I believe God wants us to break abundantly free from any and every sort of darkness, full stop, and somehow He uses our divine gifts and talents as an avenue to not only break us free from our own darkness but to also liberate others.

Once again, crazy mad love to you for your encouragement and support...may your year finish with a bang, and the new one begin with an explosion of hope, deep within your soul...may you boldly, unswervingly expect God's VERY best to show up for you in 2018!

Love. Light. Liberty...

Bobbi x

Already A Winner

I have got so much love for Nao.  British Singer, Songwriter. Creative extraordinaire.  So gifted. Yet humble to the max. Heart of gold.  Beautiful inside and out.  I love that she wore bespoke Living in Light to the Mobo Awards. I love that she is such a champion of Living in Light and I love that she is so honouring. Up for two awards, she didn't win in either category.  It makes no difference. Ha.  Because she isn't looking for the affirmation of the crowd...or props from the industry. She's a girl who is self assured and simply wanting to live her art. She gets my vote anytime. And though she isn't seeking the praise of the masses she is adored all over the place. When it comes to the industry, no matter how many award ceremonies may come and go...this superstar has already won.

Abiding Love

I cannot believe I haven't shared what's been happening on the inside of me for the last six months!!! It's soooo crazy I could actually scream! It's like my world has been flipped upside down like never before since February this year when I collided with the super simple but heavy revy of abiding in Jesus through the Word!! Christianity point 101 I hear you say. Not so. Because the truth of the matter is that as foundational as dwelling in the Word is to our Christian faith not everyone does it!! Most of us visit the word...dipping in and out....looking for solutions, answers, instructions...but very few make their home in it...which is in fact what we are called to be...a dwelling place for God. Us living in God and God living in us...through His Word...Wowserrrrrsssss how deliciously glorious!!

So, as God's dwelling place, heavenly citizens here on earth but seated in heavenly places...the goal is to get heaven on the inside of us by faith...so that the culture and kingdom of heaven within us becomes an abiding place for Christ, whilst we and all that we are, our lives and all our stuff however dysfunctional abides in Him. Abiding in Him, we are surrounded by all that He is and all that He has done...hemmed in by victory...hidden in the finished work, awaiting our inheritance in complete rest. As we meditate on who Jesus is and what He has done through the Word of God, His perfect nature, love and power becomes so real to us that we begin to understand what it means to truly abide in Him and have our whole worlds locked into His love...always winning, always flourishing no matter what's going on around us.

We look for Jesus in each Word in the Bible...looking for an encounter...not a solution or external outcome, but simply enjoying God and enjoying the seed of the Word. The more we enjoy the seed and behold the Word, returning to it again and again as a portal into Christ and heavenly realms, the more the value and worth of the Word grows within us...cultivating heavenly imagery within the eyes of our heart...replacing dysfunctional imagery...and bringing greater revelation of truth and greater encounter with Christ.  The more we hang out with Jesus in His Word, the more we trust Him...the more we stand on His promises and perfect love. The more we grow in confidence in Christ as our confession.

Looking for external results in the Word gets replaced by supernatural encounters in the Rhema Word through the presence of the Holy Spirit. Words become experiences. The logos becomes Rhema.  Seeds become fruit...fruit becomes timeless truths that we begin to live from...regardless of our external situation...our outside circumstances get swallowed up by the heaven on the inside of us...all the while we are growing, abiding, enjoying God, as the reality and beauty of God is growing steadily inside of us...as heaven becomes substance in our inmost being...and who we are on the inside in communion with Christ, overtakes who we are in the natural.  It's too exciting. I can't contain it.

I've never know anything so delicious!! This crazy adventure has taken over my life...it gets sweeter and sweeter every single day. Abiding, dwelling in Christ through His Word...me living in Christ...Christ living in me...my fave place...forever more...x

It Was Me (Not!)

I've recently started looking after my cutie pie nephews in the morning before they go to school. We hang out, have breakfast together, pray, read the Bible and do loads of activities, before walking to their school a short walk away. Most mornings we have a beautiful time and I don't have to tell them off for diddely squat.  But then there are other days when things get a little bit crazy because they have no idea where their school bag is, or they haven't done their homework. Haven't brushed their teeth, or washed their face. My little checklist helps of course, but on certain mornings the anointing upon my checklist somehow eludes my precious nephews! 

So a few days ago, the youngest has no idea where his tie was. I'm very annoyed with Him and insisted that as soon as he gets home from school that day he had better find that darn tie and have it ready for school the following morning. Very late that night I find his tie at the bottom of the stairs in the foyer. In the morning I text his mum (they all live on the first floor) and tell her his tie is on the stairs. It's obvious that even though he may have looked for his tie the night before he clearly hasn't found it. I wonder if he is at all concerned and shake my head smiling. The following morning he charges into my bedroom grinning from ear to ear as if he has done something very praiseworthy. He grins broadly and says look what I've got. He's very proud of himself for "locating" his tie and being ready in his full uniform just as we had agreed. 

I smiled knowing a little better and told him he looked super handsome. I giggled and said...hmmm that isn't possibly the tie you found on the stairs is it??? He's oblivious to it all because he's just happy he's been able to do the right thing and get praised for it!  He obviously has no idea that I'm the one who found the tie, or that it's his mum who went and got it for him. All he can see is that he's been able to do something right and that makes him feel good. Now if I was looking for a particular lesson in that I could go into the ins and outs of it all with him. I could ask him why he didn't look for it properly the night before. Why was it me who had to find it for him? Why did his mum have to go and get it? Why did he pretend like he had it all along? Why didn't he say that his mum had just given him the tie. If she hadn't have then he would have got in trouble. Why was he getting away with looking like the good guy? 

Because I wanted him to. I wanted him to win. I wanted him to get it right. I wanted him to get a helping hand if it meant he rejoiced in doing what was good. I wanted him to feel like he was winning. I didn't care about the role I had to play or how much help we gave him. I just wanted him to win. Pulling him up on the other stuff wasn't even a thing, focusing on his shortcomings wasn't the goal. The goal was magnifying the good and doing whatever we could to make him want to do the right thing...and loving it when it happened. Cause that's what God does with us right?

Even with the impurities of our heart, our shortcomings, our unfaithfulness, God always pours out such grace and mercy upon us...helping us when we might get off track...when we might fall short on our end of the agreement...and rejoicing whenever we partner with righteousness...always desiring for us to  love integrity. Always lavishing us with such affirmation whenever we do what's right...even when we may not deserve the credit...even when still get it wrong. 

"You have loved righteousness [You have delighted in integrity, virtue, and uprightness in purpose, thought, and action]." Hebrews‬ ‭1:9‬a (AMPC‬)

The Wright Vibe

Gracie Wright. What a gal?! This gorgeous one is something quite special. I'm overjoyed that Gracie wore my Geo Pink Jumpsuit to The Prince's Trust's NatWest Enterprise Award's recently as a finalist! Not only did she look absolutely knock out stunning but the grace, honour and radiance that Gracie exuded was breathtaking. Never have I known such an honouring client. Every single opportunity Gracie had, she blogged, posted, shared, wrote, screamed my fame! Eek! This big hearted girl continued to make me feel so special for dressing her! Not just me, but everyone that contributed to this special occasion, received massive props from this beautiful author, singer, entrepreneur and a million other things beside.

Gracie has an inspiring story. Survivor of a near fatal car crash at the age of 11, sustaining serious brain injury, she suffered amnesia for the longest time...unable to remember her childhood.  Yet this force of nature was marked by God for a phenomenal life...and here she is living it! Not only did she recover against the odds, but she is now using her experiences to encourage children everywhere, through authoring fantastic books like Silly Eric and Tea with Bee. She inspires kids all over through school visits, camps, international visits...this girl is so big hearted and is passionate about children embracing who they are despite their circumstances...she longs to inspire young ones to be confident and to know they are loved, valued and accepted no matter what!

Her influence, passion and innocence draws not just kids to her but all around her cannot help but be impacted by her loveliness. I know that this is just the beginning for this treasured one.  She is and will impact this generation in a fantastic way and I champion her big time! 

x

Nao rocks Living in Light @ The Brit Awards

We have nothing but love for the gorgeous, talented beauty that is Nao. We are so privileged and honoured that she chose to wear bespoke Living in Light for the first Brit Awards ceremony where she was nominated for female artist! We know this nomination won't be her last! Nao is so talented with the biggest, humblest heart and such a steadfast attitude. In an industry that can be flaky and fickle Nao stands firm, knowing her worth and having a real love and appreciation for her audience! We know that the sky really is the limit for this incredible treasure! 

Nao usually goes for striking bespoke Bianca Pants and bralets in shiny reversible fabrics which dazzle on stage, but we love the sophisticated but personalised look we went for at the Brits. The white maxi skirt and spaghetti strapped bralet looked so darn stunning on her and we loved seeing her radiate the red carpet in this colourful yet subtle ensemble...and with her gorgeous big hair the look was perfect.

We're also loving seeing Nao rock her most recent tour pieces from Living in Light. The Ankara African print casual separates are ideal for the stage as she takes centre stage in hot countries and festivals throughout this season. She is an adorable client and always visualising different looks that we love to bring together for her.   

We are so excited to see what the future holds for this gorgeous UK artist. We champion who she us and what she carries...and whether she adorns Living in Light for her stage wardrobe or not...we know this...she radiates light...and we are just so proud of her. x

Soul Master

I ask my SOUL... 

Why are you downcast? 

God LIVES in you...

God is within you...

 I encourage my SOUL...

You shouldn't be downcast...

God LIVES in you...

God is within YOU!

I SPEAK to my soul... 

DON'T be downcast!

God LIVES in you.

God is WITHIN you!

I TELL my soul... 

YOU WON'T be downcast!

GOD LIVES in YOU!

GOD is WITHIN YOU!

Robes And Rings At The Ready...

Today is Christmas Day. The sweetest thing happened with God.  Oh wow.  I tasted a little of what the prodigal son experienced in Luke 15, when he came back home after squandering his inheritance and hanging with the pigs...and was met so beautifully by his merciful Father. Obviously I haven't been backsliding or squandering my stuff...but I had definitely drifted away from the beautiful presence of God over the last week. I'd been feeling so burnt out...ended up being quite lazy...sleeping too much...catching a cold....needing rest but knowing I needed to meet my book writing deadline...so to try and catch up on writing I hadn't been spending time in the secret place with Jesus. I would just pray in the morning and then crack on with writing.  At night, before sleep I'd be watching TV to zone out.  My mind felt a little disengaged from God.  I missed Him so much. When I opened my eyes this morning and remembered it was Christmas Day my heart sunk a little because I was like..."Dad I've been away all week in my heart and I'm scared that I won't be "present" with you in my heart the way you deserve today...on this super special day to celebrate your Son, it sucks that I just don't feel spiritual...I feel numb...and I don't know even know how to seek your face because my heart feels cold...and kind of zoned out...etc etc etc.

I got out of bed, brushed my teeth and then standing in the kitchen I started to pray. I began to apologise and to explain to Jesus that I knew I hadn't really given Him my time this week, the way that He deserves, even when I could have. I wanted to be honest and confess to Him my shortcomings.  I wanted to share with Him my desperation to see His face.  That I missed Him. As I began to pray I wondered if I would be able to press in and meet with Him. Would I be able to get beyond the outer court into the Holy of Holies?  Was there a chance that I would have the delight of even glimpsing His beautiful face.  Yet before I could even get beyond the first couple of sentences suddenly He came. He floored me instantly with His love. I began to weep.  I felt His embrace all around me.  I began to laugh out loud with fresh delight at His scandalous mercy. I cried and laughed at the same time, repeatedly telling Him how crazy His love was. I suddenly felt the way I am convinced the prodigal son must have felt.  Before his son could even vocalise the apology he must have been rehearsing his entire journey home, the father was already telling his servant to fetch his robe...get the signet ring...prepare the feast because my son has come home.

Thats exactly how I felt. We had a feast right there. It was so glorious. Please don't get me wrong, I am not unfamiliar with Gods mercy and scandalous grace and I have been a recipient of it millions of times. I can't even tell you of how many occasions just like today when I have wondered just how I will see Gods face after where I've just been...or what I've just said...or thought...or done, and instantly He has taken me into the most holy place of His presence.  I never can take that access for granted and every single time He opens His heart up to me in that way I am undone.  Yet what I love so much about today was that this morning -  Christmas Day - was totally meant to be all about about glorifying Him and lavishing Him with my affection and devotion in a fresh way to say thank you for Who He is and what He did. Yet rather than prep my heart for it over the last week I'd been so disengaged. Rather than pray before I went to sleep last night I'd watched TV to switch off. Heaven had every right to be a little aloof given I'd been a little distant over the last week. Heaven would have been totally qualified to make it a little bit difficult to press in considering how unspiritual I was feeling on such a special occasion, where in fact it should have been about sincerely appreciating that Jesus was the greatest gift ever. 

Yet He floored me with His scandalous love and once again, rather than the shoulda, woulda, coulda's, He simply made it about His incredible goodness.  Like totally. Not only did He totally mash me up afresh with His love, His mercy and Father's embrace but He flooded me with holy laughter...something I have been asking for and praying for.  I was literally overcome with holy giggles as I stood there in my kitchen in fits of laughter at the crazy, unfathomable love of our Father.  It went on for ages.  It felt so delicious.  I can't believe that only minutes earlier I had been wondering if I would even have the opportunity to glimpse His glory today...HAAAA...only to encounter the sweetest communion ever. Literally got swept off my sweep...had a robe placed around me...signet ring straight in my finger...partay partay partay before I could even say "Papa I'm sorry!!" Oh my gosh, I simply cannot get over what a beautiful, perfect, Father in heaven we have. I am SO SO SO in awe of His Son, His Spirit and His scandalous love.

Time and time again I have been knocked out by just how lavish our God is with His presence. He is not like man. When someone is aloof, distracted or disengaged from us, as humans we have the tendency to withhold our affection...guard our hearts, protect our space just in case we get rejected again right? Not God. No matter how unfaithful we are, He never ever withholds His presence or His love from us.  Instead, even when we are unfaithful...He is always there just like the Father in the parable...waiting to meet our gaze the moment we choose to look in the direction of His beauty once again...He runs towards us...arms wide open...rings and robes at the ready...having already prepared a feast in the presence of our enemies...ready to celebrate our prodigal hearts, however far...however close...returning home to Abba Father. Aaaah love. Sweet love.

Merry Christmas Jesus....Son of God...Darling of heaven. You my sweet love, are the greatest gift of all. x