Sexposed 2024! A three day conference uprooting the lies around sexuality and upholding the truth, in love. What a gathering!!What a journey?! What an experience. But I’m not gonna lie - spearheading this mandate was one of the hardest things I have ever done. It was painful, uncomfortable, crushing for the soul and deeply taxing for the body. And I wanted to give up so many times.
The greatest place of grief for me was what felt like huge disengagement from the majority of the Church, from leaders, parents, individuals. It broke my heart. On a daily basis. I would consider the passivity. The ignorance. The slumber. Yet despite me continuously releasing a clarion call about how crucial this conference was for us as the body of Christ and for the world around us, in which we are called to be Salt and Light in, there seemed to be little response!
I felt so saddened knowing that that enemy satan has had a field day with our sexuality for thousands of years and not only has he brought brokenness and dysfunction to individuals, families and cultures through his attack on our sexuality but now he was blatantly after the kids. And the only ones that could push against his ruthless attacks was us - the Church - Christ within us, the hope of Glory. Yet the majority of the Church seemed uninterested.
How could we, as the Church just ignore all this sexual dysfunction and brokenness. How were we all just settling for counterfeit intimacy. And for porn and masturbation as the norm. And sex abuse. And sex trafficking. And child prostitution. And millions of unborn lives being murdered through abortion. And children being sexualised. And genitalia being chopped off due to delusion and people not knowing they are dearly loved sons and daughters of God. And enslavement to lust. And confusion about our gender. And promiscuity. And homosexual behaviours. And shame about our body. And looking for love in all the wrong places. And boring sex or sexless marriages. And repressed sex drives. And shame around sexuality. And ungodly soul ties. And a lonely society. And fear of intimacy. And divided hearts when worshipping Jesus. And a timid, weak, soiled bride of Christ.
And there I was imploring leaders, parents, individuals, families - to repond to this clarion call. Pleading. Explaining…we have a window, to partner with God. To not just come into a deeper place of glorious, wholeness and intimacy with the Lord as His bride, experiencing the deepest communion with Him and discovering the unrivalled joys of sacred sexuality in Christ, but also to turn the tide of this plague of sexual immorality and to be the salt and light in this sexuality broken, dark and wounded world - for such a time as this.
Yet aside from the precious remnant championing is cause, there was very little response. And yet the sad reality is that actually for the last 50-60 years, this has been the status quo for us as the church. We have unfortunately done very little about the deteriorating sexual landscape of our society. To think that marriage has been made legal between two men or two women on our watch. So many babies have died on our watch. Paedophilia has gone from being something that was a crime to now being defined merely as a sexual orientation - on our watch.
And we’ve been so passive when this has happened. We’ve not only failed to be the solution but we have unfortunately contributed to the problem.
And as I approached the 1 month til conference mark back in early March and had less than 20 people booked, a cost of £15K to meet and what seemed like a wasted effort, feeling utterly utterly crushed, suddenly the Lord spoke to me very clearly about why there was very little response to this clarion call and to this gathering.
He shoed me that the reason whole divine assignment is so crushing and painful is because through Sexposed, we are breaking new ground. He then led me to the words of the worship song, New Wine.
In the crushing, In the pressing
You are making new wine
In the soil, I now surrender
You are breaking new ground
So I yield to You into Your careful hand
When I trust You I don't need to understand
Make me Your vessel, Make me an offering
Make me whatever You want me to be
I came here with nothing
But all You have given me
Jesus bring new wine out of me
And then he took me to Luke 5:37-39 AMP:
“And no one puts new wine into old wineskins; otherwise the new [fermenting] wine will [expand and] burst the skins and it will be spilled out, and the skins will be ruined. But new wine must be put into fresh wineskins. And no one, after drinking old wine, wishes for new; for he says, ‘The old is fine.’”
He showed me that He was releasing a new wine it is only those that have the new wineskins who could handle it. That it would take a real maturity and expnading of the mind to be able to carry what He was releasing. And that unfortunately most did not have the new wine. And in order to preserve those with the old wineskins as well as ensuring the new wine did not get wasted only those with the new wineskins would be at Sexposed, by God’s design. Wow.
He said there were many who were content with the old wine and did not know they needed the new wine. These were the ones who felt a measure of healing was enough. Or a measure of deliverance was enought. Or their own deliverance and freedom was enough. But unfortunately weren’t yet mature enough to be salt and light to the sexually broken around them.
He showed me that was not so much of a public event where people could observe or spectate but rather a strategic military operation where those who understood the principles of war would come together to strategise warfare, coordinate military operations, make plans and come to agreements, understand the enemy, take orders for our Bridegroom and Commander in Chief and execute military operations from that deep place of intimacy. In order to dismantle the altars of darkness and reestablish altars to the Lord. All from a place of rest, intimacy, purity and consecration.
I also had a sense that there for this gathering, there was an elaborate table prepared by our commander in chief in the presence of our enemies. Where He would be anointing our heads with oil preparing us for battle. But that this whole military operation was taking place inside the bedroom chamber. But from this place of the chamber and seated at this elaborate table we were able to control the battleground. With the sceptre of authority given to us by Our King, our Bridegroom and Commander in Chief.
And this is exactly what it ended up being. And it was glorious. Utterly utterly glorious. And the way Jesus so kindly and powerfully gave me vision and understanding of what He was doing, was thee most encouraging invigorating, inspiring, thing ever. I have absolutely no doubt that Sexposed was birthed in God’s heart and executed by His design and His desire. And that’s why there was such a fight. It was mind blowing to be part of what He did both in the natural and in the Spirit. And I am crazy humbled and properly awestruck to have been part of it.
I simply could not have done it without the phenomenal Sexposed team. WOW!!! What a gift! Thank you in particular to the Core Team who have been the greatest strength. A huge thank also to the incredible ministries, ministers and worship leaders/teams that were involved in Sexposed. The way you all gave of yourself, championed and served the vision, and at the same time encouraged me! Seriously guys thank you!!!
Beautiful friends and family who kept encouraging & praying! My River Church and CCF Church family! Amazing spiritual parents - honestly thank you. And such heartfelt thanks to all the intercessory, prophetic, apostolic and shepherding voices who helped carry and birth this vision.
Such a heartfelt to everyone who attended in person, on livestream and who partnered with the vision and sowed into it. God clearly showed me that He was pouring out new wine and those with the new wineskins would come. Thank you for carrying the new wine and allowing it to expand you.
Thank You Jesus. You continue to be absolutely dazzling. Faithful beyond measure. And even when saying yes to you can feel like the scariest, riskiest and hardest thing ever - free-falling in you is still the safest, richest, most live-giving way to live. Thank You for trusting us Precious Jesus, You are beautiful.♥️
“Let us rejoice and shout for joy [exulting and triumphant]! Let us celebrate and ascribe to Him glory and honor, for the marriage of the Lamb [at last] has come, and His bride has prepared herself. She has been permitted to dress in fine (radiant) linen, dazzling and white—for the fine linen is (signifies, represents) the righteousness (the upright, just, and godly living, deeds, and conduct, and right standing with God) of the saints (God’s holy people).
Revelation 19:7-8
Photography Credit: Kokila Paramanantham and Jesse-Steve Amartey